Feeling Alone

Do you ever feel alone? Like you're surrounded by so many people yet it feels as if no one understands you? Because that's basically how I've felt my entire life.

I like being alone and the general silence and serenity captured by my bedroom walls helps me find happiness in this big world, but I have always longed to find someone who is just like me. Someone who can be loud and spontaneous yet introverted and insecure. Someone who shared my thoughts and opinions on the world.

Don't get me wrong, I know that I will never find my exact replica, but I can't help but hope that I will at east find someone who can understand why I think the things I do.

I have friends, and I have the internet, and I have a life, but its not the one I want to live. I feel trapped here.

 I never liked my hometown. It's a place that no one leaves. Where people grow old and eventually fade away, and if I know that the place that I need to be isn't in this dot-on-the-map town then why am I here?

 I cant wait to be the person that finally leaves and follows her dreams and does what she wants to do and finds that person that makes her feel...complete.

But for now I suppose I will just have to keep painting that smile on my face everyday until I can get out of this deadbeat town.

Keep your chin up,

xoxo Sarah